So...I took the plunge to try and get a hang of doing vector graphics. I'm really not sure of the best way to go about this, but I have a copy of Macromedia Freehand so I gave it a go. This little guy here is a recreation of a doodle I did and I think he turned out fair for a first shot.
Long ways to go and it'd be a helluva lot easier if I didn't have to use a bloody mouse. Exhausting. Mebbe I need to pick up a book or three on the subject...
My Next Stikfas custom paint project. My mate, Hem, from Australia just finished this bash and is sending it my way for a paint app. Very excited. I really love this build and can't wait to have my way with it.
Doing these paints on others' figures is the closest I've come to customizing in quite a long time. I've sat down and tried to bash some new figs on a number of occasions and I just really think I've lost the bug...
So...my first painted Stikfas custom in months. Heck I didn't even build it. My buddy Keith, aka ShadowMaster from The Asylum (http://www.stikfanatics.com) put the bash together, a clone of an earlier custom I painted for him.
Ya know... I've been doodling my whole life and pretending it was art. I've been jotting down notes pretending I was crafting stories. I've spent the last five years of my life making custom Stikfas action figures (read; playing with toys) and the last TEN years working a pretty dead end job working in an appliance store.
I like to remind myself that I really do have it pretty good, but- ya know? I just feel like I should be doing more. LIke I'm capable of more. I just can't accept that this is it for me and it makes me very, very discontented.
I drink more, spend more time in front of the teevee watching inane movies, read less, DO less...
I'm not poor. We're not poor. We're your average lower middle class couple, we're just not all that great at managing our finances. We do our best to stick some away, we're putting money away for our retirement, we live a relatively comfortable life, but we also pretty much live paycheck to paycheck (the great American dream, right?).
So when things don't go as they're supposed to it fuggs up the works. Like now.
First off, I "took one for the team" by taking a half a step back at work to take over a position so that we could get rid of an employee that wasn't cuttin' the mustard. I did knowing that I'd be taking a bit of a cut in pay as I'd be leaving a sales position and therefore losing some earning potential, but believing that the president would make up for it.
I believed wrongly. I'm losing a good buck an hour or better and there has, as of yet, been no move to compensate me
Secondly, two payments from a third party that I was relying on have fallen through. One was due beginning of September, the other is due first of December. Combined we're looking at twelve hundred bucks that's supposed to be in my checking account that isn't, and isn't going to be. Puts me in a bit of a pickle as things have been a bit lean already.
I'm supposed to be taking a business trip to Minnesota tomorrow and my checking account is EmpTy. My savings dried up a couple of months ago and hasn't recovered and to make things worse, my wife is supposed to be taking a trip with the girls to Vegas for a few days next month. Oh, yeah...and then there's that whole "Holiday Season" thing, right?
I'm a bit behind the eight ball and I'm not sure what to do. Power & Light is overdue. I'm very, very broke today and tomorrow. Vegas coming up. Christmas coming up. And I can't find anywhere to dig up some extra funds and there is NO way to replace the $1200 I'm not getting from that third party.
I know it'll all work out, I just hate being in this position. Especially since we make enough money that if we just managed it a bit better... There's just no reason to be here. No excuses. I'm just a piss poor manager of money and it kind of saddens me.
Just feeling a little sorry for myself and I shouldn't. We've got it pretty good. A helluva lot better than a helluva lot of others. I need to keep reminding myself of that. I need to learn to better appreciate what I have and be a better steward of what's been given me.
Starting today...I just plain need to do better than I have. Period.
I'm really not much for Halloween (or most other holidays for that matter), but I was roped into carving a Jack-O @ the 'rents last week and I was rather pleased with the process. Mrs. Zook must've picked up on this fact as, lo and behold, another pumpkin arrived at my domicile for my carving pleasure.
He's simple, but I kinda likes him. I'm simple like that...